Funnily enough, drama is what brought me back here lol
I stopped being friends with someone who was my best friend and it gave me the opportunity to creep back into this life and oh my GOD I feel so free. She's one of those fat girls who spends all of her money on food and tells everyone her 'curves' are beautiful but then cries to her friends about men not wanting her because of how fat she is.
I mean I think we've all been there but at least we aren't body positivity activists??? I'm not going to turn this into a rant about her but I WILL say that I'm so happy to be back to sticking to myself and happily restricting.
Last time I made an entry on this blog I was yo-yoing between 228 and 230lbs. I got down to 210 and then started hanging out with that friend more and I wound up gaining all of that back... Now I'm down to 220.8 and I fucking hate myself. I had a panic attack earlier over 20g of Doritos -_-
I can't promise that I'll be super active on this blog at this point but it's part of my life again so we'll see?
