I feel so bad for my laptop. I'm also going crazy not posting on my blog.

So shortly after the last post I made I wound up spilling chai all over my keyboard and until now (I'm borrowing a keyboard) I haven't been able to even sign into my computer.
So to the few of you that follow me: I'm not dead!:D

My eating has been fluctuating but it's become quite managable. The stationary bike is still screwy but I may be getting an elipticle soon and I'm so stoked for it!

I did my measurements today and since the end of January I've lost an inch on my thigh and half an inch on my waist. It's not a lot but I'm really happy about it. I'm not really seeing the results but the measuring tape doesn't lie so at least I have that to look up to.

I've been at a steady 227-228 lately (except for today because I'm bloated as hell, I think i'm at 230 lol) and it makes me happy. Lowly but surely I'll be down to 220, then 210, then 200. The number is going to keep dropping if it kills me.

I'm getting back into the Purging habit and it's scaring me.

I already have heart palpitations (from purging in the past i'm sure) and still every time I feel full I want to run to the bathroom to go "shower". I'm worried that Its going to get bad again.

I woke up from a nap after being baked off of my ass and the first thing I did was shove a bunch of garlic bread in my mouth and now I'm so full that I'm sick. I'm drinking a bunch of water and when I'm finished with it I'm probably going to go "take a shower"..

I keep saying every time afterwards "That's the last time". But it's never the last time:/

I seriously need to get my charger port fixed.

I hate that I'm not updating this as often as I did, sometimes I have anxiety over it.
Well as a mini update, I'm still fat. Shocker. I've been stuck bouncing back and forth from 229.7 to 232.4 (which Is likely because of sodium, i haven't been drinking as much water.) and it's annoying the hell out of me. I need to stop forgetting to drink water. Ever since my Voss bottles got fucked up I haven't been drinking as much water, I guess it's because the water isn't next to me all day to remind me "Yo you need this to live" and so I'm retaining as much sodium as I can.

Unfortunately it's a little difficult to escape sodium all together.
Lately I've been drinking just tea with stevia when I'm hungry, i've cut out the honey powder because somehow I get anxious over the extra 15 calories.

Ugh. I'm too stoned today to eat nothing. I've eaten a small banana today along with my Blackberry Green tea and so as of now (4:08pm) I've consumed 90 calories. It's not bad. I want to wait until 6 before I make my soup (64) so that by then I've only eaten 154 calories and it could be worse. I'm going to have a weigh in at the doctor's office next week and I want to weight at least 227.5 by then. I'm thinking about having a tea fast on Wednesday. Or even tomorrow.

ALSO.
I lost my EBT card last week while I was in Weston and I've had no healthy food in this house. It's back to eating what the rest of the house buys and it's been fucking me up so bad. There's no veggies and I just ate the last piece of fruit and I have to wait another 3-5 days until I get my card back.

Yippy.