I'm getting back into the Purging habit and it's scaring me.

I already have heart palpitations (from purging in the past i'm sure) and still every time I feel full I want to run to the bathroom to go "shower". I'm worried that Its going to get bad again.

I woke up from a nap after being baked off of my ass and the first thing I did was shove a bunch of garlic bread in my mouth and now I'm so full that I'm sick. I'm drinking a bunch of water and when I'm finished with it I'm probably going to go "take a shower"..

I keep saying every time afterwards "That's the last time". But it's never the last time:/