I'm in Weston and I don't have my food journal with me.

Caramel Cube - 39 calories. (Wow never doing that again)

Green tea w/ tbsp Honey & Truvia - 60 calories

Metabolic water - 20 calories

= 119 calories by 10:00am

It's only 12:10 and I'm getting hunger pains. The worst part is that in Allison's room there is a huge mirror in front of her bed and all I can do is stare at my fat. I feel ugly and gross and it makes me want to go run a mile but it's windy, cold as fuck and raining and she would probably find it a little weird. I wish I was home so I could just make my Ana soup. I'm chugging water and tea like there's no tomorrow.

12:19pm: Good news, I'll be back in Pendleton by 2 and then I can make my soup. So 168 by around 3 (It's about a 20-30 minutes drive and then count in the time to prepare and make the soup) is actually pretty good. I have a little less anxiety now.

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1/2 Blended Pumpkin Spice Frap (190) [Should have asked for something sugar free]
Ana Soup (43)
Mixed Berries&Stevia [Straw-8-Black-10-Blue-42] (calories, not pieces)

= 408 calories by 3:30pm
- 40 (from walking)
- 8 (from squats)
- 14 (from jogging in place)
- 11 (from marching in place while Allison was in the shower)

= 335 by 4:44pm.

Not as good as yesterday but it could be worse.

Now left with 365 calories for dinner.

6:10pm: 1 Buttered Popcorn Ricecake (35) - 330 left

Chow Mein beef teriyaki (520) -190

 My goal today was 700kcal. I could stay at 890 (FUCK NO) or I could work it off in small ways.
Or even better I could just purge it and tell Lucas that I'm not feeling well. I may not puke it all up but I can at least get rid of 190 calories worth of bullshit.

If I hadnt let myself become such a whale then 890 calories wouldn't even be that bad but unfortunately I am indeed a whale. 

Also: NEVER EAT A BIG AZ BURGER AGAIN BECAUSE IT'S LIKE 860 CALORIES AND THAT'S JUST A BIG FAT FUCK NO