Whenever I tell myself or write in my journal that I'm going to stop eating and start exercising I begin to experience extreme hunger even if I had just eaten a decent meal within' the hour (my current situation). I believe it's anxiety and not real hunger, honestly. As soon as my brain starts realizing "Shit I don't get to indulge anymore" it starts having a panic attack and tricks me into craving food that I know I could easily go without.
My body is actually throwing a tantrum when I tell it it can't eat (as much) anymore and it's ridiculous. It gets to the point where chewing gum makes me feel ravenous and I'm so tired of it. I don't even know how to use strength to fight this. I know passed this point is where I become trained and strong but I never know how I manage to get passed my body's anxiety.
My stomach acts like it's fucking 12.
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