I take the Depo shot every few months and I've been on and off of it since I was 18 (23 now) and sometimes it's known to cause a lot of bleeding (some people are just unlucky). I personally had never had that problem, ever, until recently. The passed two days I had been experiencing a lot of dizziness and I was convinced that I was going to pass the fuck out every 10 minutes or so. So every time I felt like that (usually later at night for some reason) I had assumed that my blood sugar was dangerously low so of course my first thought is: "I need to eat something with sugar in it." so two nights in a row I had consumed candy and sweets. Then when it wasnt working still I tarted to get really worried and I called the nurse at the health department. She fucking told me that I was light headed because my body wasn't used to the spotting I had apparently been doing and it had NOTHING to do with my blood sugar.
Now I'm back up to 239 and I'm so fucking mad. Afterwards all I wanted to do was cry because I couldn't handle the thought of me gaining a pound when I didn't even need to. I stuffed my fat fucking mouth with sugar and artificial flavoring because I was scared and now I'm up another pound. So today when I went home from my boyfriend's house I didn't eat anything until dinner.
5 potato wedges, baked, home made, no additives = 200ish (Im guessing)
Now I'm back at my boyfriend's and his mom told us there were two frozen dinners in the freezer saved for us so I've been counting every single calorie I could possible burn (Just burned off another 25 from squats♡) so that if I am required to eat then it wont be detrimental. I just want to get on with my week and get back to losing weight like I'm fucking supposed to. Who knows? I could have been down to 236 if I hadn't spent Saturday and Sunday stuffing my face like a pig.
Way to be, Alexis. You're gonna go far, kid.
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