Lunch: -
Dinner:
- Domino's Chicken Alfredo (600)
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I can't stay I'm happy with myself because now I either have to work off 200 calories (which is going to be difficult because my feet got really bad yesterday and they still hurt) or I leave the alfredo as the only thing I eat. This would be ideal if I worked off calories AND didn't eat anything further but the antibiotics I'm on for my sinus infection require food. I attempted taking my first pill earlier in the afternoon on an empty stomach and it was horrible. I felt so sick that I thought I was going to throw up. Granted throwing up wouldn't have been horrible because all I'd had prior to that was my metabolic water (which I've been drinking religiously today) but I still try to avoid vomiting in fear of liking the idea too much. Again.
I have the ingredients to my Ana Soup prepared in the fridge and so that's only about 40 something calories but It's still got enough sodium in it to make me reluctant. And any fruit I have is at least 90 calories and is HARDLY considered filling. Especially apples. Apples always make me hungrier afterwards.
I also need to go to bed earlier tonight (meaning earlier than like 4am) because my therapy appointment is tomorrow and I'm really nervous about it. I've never met this woman before and I'm not excited to have a new therapist. Or any therapist.. But I guess if I'm not going to manage my disordered eating then I at least have to try and manage my anxiety.. I hate anxiety.
If I had just told my boyfriend no to the alfredo then I wouldn't be in this problem, my intake problem that is. I think I'll try and do some aerobics until my feet tell me to go to hell.
Wish me luck. I hope you're all staying strong, I believe in you <3
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