I have no self discipline and I kind of hate myself.

For the passed two days I've done nothing but eat and fill out like a walking whale and I hate myself. I haven't even touched the scale because I'm terrified of what it's going to tell me. It's 2:31pm and so far I've had a rice cake (50) and I'm drinking some green tea (27). I don't plan on eating more than dinner tonight, perhaps I'll make my own dinner depending on what my boyfriend's mother decides to cook. More often than not it's shit that's boiled in grease so I can't exactly say I love her cooking.

Also I stumbled on Fatspo today and I'm actually pissed off.
All you need to do is hop on tumblr and scroll through the 'positive messages' and you'll understand why. Tags like that are going to kill people faster than they think. I found a gif of someone shoveling a cupcake in the face of the fattest chick ever and all i could do was shudder and stare. It was so disgusting and it sure as fuck killed my appetite. Sure when I see some pictures of Wendy's or McDonald's (fuck you tumblr ads) I get kind of hungry because it looks SO good but even I know that you don't just eat something because it sounds good. That's how you get diabetes and personally to that I say no fucking thank you.

I actually had to rest my eyes on some thinspo. Ugh. Beautiful legs <3
I love looking at their stomachs and imagining all of the things I would do when I look like that.
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Lunch:
- Chicken Salad  (230)

= 307